I wrote to instill the memories, to recall everything I couldn't in the future. I wrote for the sole reason that they would be only memories, because I didn't hope for the future. I wrote about memories to learn from my mistakes, because I would need to look back and restrain from a repeat. I did not think relationships could last very long, always wondering if there would be a tomorrow, and if not, then I have something to read upon. A search for what I have done wrong.

Now, I want to write so that I may remember you. No, it is not that I think we will not last; quite the opposite, in fact, because instead of hoping, I do know. I never want to forget, though. I want to pay more attention to all that I say, all that you say. I want to record us as we were, as we are, as we will be.

You are the memory I want to keep f o r e v e r.

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